Today

I guess I'm just going through a phase, again, in life.

so bad today, so bad =/

Lonely

This Lonely heart wants to speak the word of Love.

Turning around

I have this issue, i think i could call it an issue... I tend to let my world revolve on one thing or one person..... I should stop doing that because most of the time, it starts hurting or boring. But someone, I can't stop myself, that's just me... Maybe it will change one day, hopefully.

moody!

Freaking moody today, anything gets me pissed so easily today...

Geez >_______________>

13.11.12

Dear Jen "Mom" "Lil sis".

I'm glad we've met and thank you for everything you did for me.
You're a little shinning star that keeps growing as days pass by.
One of the most kind hearted people I've met, one of the most caring
And especially, one of the best friend anyone could wish for.
I wish we could celebrate this special day together with everyone.

I wish you all the best and success. You deserve everything.
Happy Birthday Jen =)

Keep smiling young woman and Life will keep smiling at you.

Your Son,
Yama

Much love mama 

PS: Already gave you your gift =p

Love.

This is how I see love.

Love is passion, respect and happiness.It is a connection between two souls that is out of the norms.
It is a feeling you can't create, something out of control. We can't help who we fall for. It is one of the best feeling and emotion in life. The warmth of Love. I've felt it before and hopefully once again in the future. I've never had regrets falling for anyone, the happiest moments of my life. I wish it could go on, but things are the way they are =)

But in Love, we also find hurtful moments, betrayal and sadness. It can destroy one person in a second. It crushes you from the inside. You lose your everything and you obviously fall down.

So be strong and move on. Life is too short for regrets and we should all enjoy it. Love brings up the best memories in Life and that's the most important thing to remember. We all need the Love. No matter how hurt you were before, we all recover one day but it takes time. Build up from where you left and become a better person. Smile to Life and life will smile to you.

noticed

i don't know why i can't stop thinking about you... there is always something that makes me think of you =(

and sadly it doesn't change anything.

Reminders

Just pics i found interesting

On my mind.

There is some stuffs lately on my mind, and i don't know how to get rid of it.

SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!

Frustration

Lately, i think I am feeling a bit moody resulting in me being cold.

I don't know what is bothering me, maybe its nothing.
Maybe I'm just tired

Lets hope i get to solve this fast. I hate this feelings

Changes

Changes are occurring.... lets hope for the best

Reason

"Sometimes, all we need is a Reason to go on."

Life is all about choices and decisions.
They are the Reason we live on, the reason we fight for what we think is better or great.
Life without a reason isn't meant to be lived.
So give yourself a reason to live, find the reason.
Because we all create our own future.



Thank you for giving me a Reason to live.

Who knew

Who knew you leaving would affect me so much.

Goodbye

Goodbye Lil sis,
I never felt so close to a friend and im really sad your leaving.  I couldn't say goodbye properly to you and its eating my from the inside,  i have so much things on my mind that i felt i should have told you even you might already know them, so much emotions stuck into me.  I feel heavy and uneasy,  all i needed was some mins.  But you decided otherwise.  My heart aches.

So here i go,  you will miss me so much,  never felt this since i left the girls i liked before.  You were good to me and i cant thank you enough for it,  words aren't enough to thank you and i Thought a hug would do it.  Please take care of yourself since i wont be there to do so.  Tears are dropping and i can't stop then,  i didn't think it would actually happen.

Please be good and be good to others like you always are.  Also,  live up your dreams because you deserves whats good.  We had fun during your stay in MU and i won't forget any of them,  i will cherish those memories till i die.  I'm feeling so sad,  really. You're a sunshine, a shinning star and a good friend. Thank you for allowing me to live this adventure together with you.

I do respect your choice and i wish you all the best.  Come back to us safely, and lets keep in touch.  Thank you for some Positivity in life and for the sunlight.

This hug was important to me,  so ill keep it for next time hopefully. 
There is more things i could have said maybe but right now, i cant think properly.  Again,  i will miss you so much 'mama'.

hopefully this post will  help me.

-tear drops-
Much love,
Yan


*INCOMPLETE*

The Future

How do we end up in the future, we don't know. So many factors that could affect our lives, and turn it in either way. Life is too short and waiting for things to happen would be pointless, why not make it happen if we can?  If it doesn't work out for you right now, be strong and try to overcome the problems. Do not give up, because giving up is the only way of failing to achieve.Keep trying, keep hanging on to your objectives. Once you get pass the obstacle, it will be easier somehow but doesn't mean more problems won't arise in the future. Life is never easy but worthwhile living it in our own way. Be the master of your life, make it a masterpiece.

days

Lets enjoy the last days together.
Lets make it worthwhile.
Lets create memories so we can never forget .

Beach party

Partied like a boss

Dear "lil sis"

You've been good to me, you've been a good friend i needed for hard times.
You've supported me all the way, dealt with all my negativity. I thank you for this.
You're really good to me, and i don't think i can ever repay you. i owe you much.

Thank you for everything,
Thank you for bringing some sunshine in my dark days,
Thank you for being a good listener,
Thank you for taking care of me,
Thank you for being awesome,

Lil Sis, i will miss you loads. 
Lets meet again someday =)
Be good and Enjoy the trip to success.
Life is smiling at you and you deserve it.

*one tear drop*

Much love,
/me

7 Seconds

7 seconds hugging, haven't had a hug in a while =)

WHAT A DAY!

Friday?

Such a long day for me, after sleeping only 4hrs.. it was time for work....

Also had an indoor soccer game which was very very,VERY tiring. haven't played soccer for a year and it was very nice to get to play again. The day wasn't over yet, we planned to visit AG22, ohh yes, party time... this time with Jen.

at 2.15am, we decided to go to Insonmia... yes thats how crazy we are, drove all the way from flic en flac to grand bay because it was PARTY TIME!

Sadly, the party didnt end so well.... someone bumped his vehicle into my car... Left back door :(
My poor car, nothing could be done.... but its fine.


This day was all for you, i hope you had fun. i will miss you so much =(

deceiving

Love is deceiving and hurtful but it brings up the happiest moments in life, the warmth feeling we all look for and the confidence to live each day. Love is one of the greatest feeling I've had in life. It gave me strength, it showed me how to treat people in a better way. Love is pure and sincere, true love is wonderful. It is all about trust and being true to others. Love makes you dream but also keep you into reality. I wouldn't be able to live my life without the feeling of being loved by others. We all need love, It is a necessity. And what would we be without our loved ones? =)


- Couldn't find better people to love -

From.

I don't write good English, i just write with my heart

Silence

Complete silence creates awkwardness and i don't know how to break the ice.

I didn't ask for this and its all i got. All i wanted to do is create something good, something special.
A moment we will remember. Sadly, I've failed to it.


Powerless to the situation again, i couldn't do anything.

Love?

Who?
         An amazing person who changed me, someone who means the world to me. She made me see the world through another eye. I can't thank you enough for that. You did a lot for me, more than expected. I never felt so comfortable near someone. You gave me strength, enough strength to move forward, to make things possible. You were the best i could have. Because of you, i can live on and be happy. You cared for me more than anyone else did.

What?
         Her strength, her kindness and awesomeness are amazing. Her smile is a killer, each of her smile made me happy and warm inside. I couldn't get enough of it. Her eyes are mesmerizing, i tend to lose myself in those darkness, a darkness where it's calm and peaceful. I could stay there forever. The perfect one, the beautiful one. I couldn't stop myself from falling for you.

Where? 
        It all happened here on my small island. The day we met was pure joy and happiness. I will never forget this day. You kept me thinking all day. Thinking about it again, makes me smile and also sad. Hanging out with her was the best days of my life, always so funny always so shinning. She brighten my way, my life.

When?
       She walked her way to me, my heart started beating faster. Then i thought maybe she could be the one. The half i was looking for, a love one. It all happened so fast, and i couldn't move. i stood there powerless to the situation. i was stunned by you. The memories i will never forget, the moments engraved in my soul.

Why?
        She was there for me anytime and anywhere, in my darkest days. The days i fell down, she was there to pick me up. She meant everything to me. There are no words to describe her beauty, and her inner beauty is a diamond, pure and wonderful. She brought the best out of me. A good friend, a lovely person, the best anyone could have.




But..........
She is just someone I'll never be able to reach.



- Inspired by "The Last", a video by WongFu Production -

Daily.

i miss you

Time

Does time even help us to forget? Does time heal the wounds?


No matter how hard we try, we can't forget things that hurt us in the past. But no matter what, life goes on. All we have to do is live on and move on. The Past helps us to be a better person, we learn from mistakes and deceptions. Your Past doesn't describe you, you make your own choices and future.

Nothing goes according to what we have plan, the path to happiness is a long and difficult one. Sometimes we get to choose happiness, sometimes it just comes to us.

Planning leads  to deception sometimes, that is why i choose not to plan and live everyday as a new one.

I think we should all go for what we want, why wait when we can make it happen? We fail? lets start again till we achieve what we want, till we reach the goal set. Life is unpredictable, say what you have to say, do what you have to do, there might be no second chance to do so.

Life

Life is a mystery, help me discover its beauty.

Friendship

"A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself."

We get to choose our friends, with them we create memories.
A Friend is always here for you even in your darkest days.
Where do we find them? i don't have the answer to this, but all i can say is that it just happens.

They should be able to criticize you because they now what is best for you.
 "A real friend stabs you in the front"
If they don't want to harm you, they will guide you to be a better person.
Life would be boring without friends, friendship is everything.

And we all find love through friendship right? =)
It all starts by being friends.


Friends is all i have, i cannot imagine a day without them. They bring happiness and laughter.

Thank you all my friends


Off topic : A model makes the picture great, not the camera =)

WOW

R.I.P "The Pole Guy/Origami guy"

What a day at the club... unbelievable, bouncers prevented the guy from entering the club..
so he went to climb up the electric pole, doing i don't know what... i suppose "trying to cut the power". Poor guy got electrocuted up there, his feet got stuck and he kept hanging at the top... horrific. he caught fire then fell to  the ground. Ouch... People tried to assist the injured guy, but i don't think there were anything we could do. called the police and ambulance. The police came to the spot first then they took him to the nearest hospital. Sad story... Rest in peace.



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300 WANTANS? Yeps, made it all at vans' place... Only ate like 25? haha





Sometimes people do things we cant explain.

One of those saturdays

Omg!  Saw a watch and i couldnt afford it but such a nice watch.. 

Also,  taken 2? Good movie,  liked it... 

Now we're gonna head to the club...  My mom needs a driver haha...  So its party time. 

'small is cute' thats what they say...
Sadly im fat,  so im ugly :p

PS: you keep dreaming girl.  Cant wait so we could hang out again :) 

Late post

Wooops,  crazy friday....  After a long sober break,  finally had a drinking night....  Played a game called drunken tower,  not bad at all.

Had fun with the guys, 

And welcome back mother :)

Tired

Today wow!  Unbelievable...  Shocking experience,  something ill never do again....

The rest was boring... 

B.

I was thinking if you ever thought about it? im sure you don't......
Even though you left, i still care about you even if i try not to.
And it isn't an easy task, i keep wondering.

How could things end up so badly?
I guess i disappointed you too much, i made you leave.
i try not to think about you, about what i've done.

i hope one day we'll meet again so we could start over again.

Be good my Friend.

Someday..

We all wish we could just forget and live on.

Mistakes were made, people have been hurt.. but that what life is about..

Happiness and Sadness.

We all try to make up to the people we hurt, we all try to move on to forget the past, sometimes its just not so easy. Time is all we need, but how much time?

I've lost someone precious to me, she was good to me. I'll never forget her.
All i did was disappointing her, i guess i could never have made it up to her.

time to let go?


i just keep wondering.

Dear friend

Dear Friend

You were always present for me whenever i needed someone to talk to.  You were the BEST and i still think you're the best friend anyone could get.  I cannot thank you enough for what you did for me,  i will always be thankful.  I still miss talking to you everyday. 

I regret how things turned out between us and if i could change it i would.  Circumstances lead to this.  Im really sorry for everything. I will never forget you and hopefully one day we could be friends again.  I will keep hoping. 

If you ever read this,  know that i am really sorry and i hope you'll forgive me one day.

Take care of yourself and i wish you happiness. Be good.

Friends

Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them. but they are always there.


Some people come into your life for a single purpose, once its done. they leave

Awww cute

Awww a post for me?

thank you thank you thank you...
there's one for you too =)

25/9/12

I never felt this down since my break up.

I lost my best friend just because i am a disappointment to her.
I couldn't do anything about it, i couldn't do anything to save it.
I  am willing to keep trying but she made it clear that it wouldn't change anything
Why am i such a disappointment? Why can't i even keep the people i like close to me?

Did i do anything wrong to deserve this?

I always cared for her, there isn't a single day i didn't think about her.
There isn't a single second i didn't care for her.
She is whats most important to me and i just lost her.

I feel empty right now, i don't know what to do.
I don't know what else to do. I am lost without her.

Im so sorry my dearest friend, i wish i didn't cause you any harm. i wish i didn't disappoint you that much.

i hope one day, we'll talk again. i miss you

Future

We never know what the future reserves to us, it is not possible to control it.

Past and Present events create what we will be the next day.

powerless

I wish i could help you right now but i wouldn't do anything good to you

this is how i feel right now. :(

Thoughts

I keep telling myself that i dont have those feeling for you, but my heart doesnt want to listen to my mind. This is how stubborn the heart is.

Maybe if i ever see you again, my heart will skip a beat.

taking care

I feel like i take care of you like a big bro.....

Woot Woot!

Spams on twitter

I've been tweeting alot lately, mostly about love...

but i dont have any reason to do so...
why do i do it then? =/
am i going crazy?

Eid Mubarak

Waking up a sunday and knowing you don't have to work on Monday... awesomeness

Happy Eid Mubarak

Lost in my thoughts

Today i had to think about it....

i don't know why, i just felt like it. Do "we" still exist? I don't know.
Do i still have my chances? i think not.

The main question is should i move on?
Should i keep fighting?
I dont have the answer to it.
i hope one day i will.
And i hope its soon.

because im losing my mind!

so...

so this is how everything is gonna end?

i am to blame.

give up?

Should i give up? Should i keep trying? I am so confused right now.

I don't know what to do, its so blur.
I wish i could fix things but looks like it is not possible
You think i dont care but i really do.
Should i let go as you said? What if i don't want to?
Maybe i shouldn't give up and fight till the end.

We aren't going back to where we were but i feel like i should fight for whats left of us
I betrayed your trust and im really sorry for it
Mistakes were made and i can't fix them
I just wish you would accept my apologies for them

i really miss you and miss talking to you.

why?

Why do u even bother if u dont care?

making me harder for me? :/

buddy

i miss u

new post new day

I do not know where this comes from, but today i feel happy for you.
Happy that you found better
You deserve to be happy


Goodluck to you my old friend,i can wish you the best as from today.

future

is it getting brighter? :/

friends

made some "new" friends lately, great...

but i miss my best friend so much :(

Hmm

Whats going on?

a friend

Thank you for listening.
Feels much better now =)

Thank you

10/5/2012

Finally =)

30-4

M#$&#* FK#$*# DAY

without you

nothing will be the same

Unfair

Why couldn't things be easier?

Yours

I'm falling for you <3

Thank you for being so awesome

The start of something

Sudden change in the course of life,

the future looks beeautiful and amazing

Lets hope it keeps on going

Can't wait for it to happen

Sad Life

Life was awesome then sad again

gotta deal with it now

Lil dogs

quad biking

Domaine de l'etoile, 3hrs

nothing to update

everyday its only work and home....

nothing much to update
life is okay for now :)

Mood Swing

Such a sudden change during working hours............


WHAT IS WRONG?

Will be back

I've been busy lately, havent had time to blog or felt too lazy

Will get back to it soon =)

Messed up

Im so Sorry

Gong Xi Fatt Chai

Blackout Guy

Pictures describes it all

Beach Party

Ile aux cerf Beach Party. Awesome