ideas

You just had the wrong thoughts about me. =)

This saturday

I feel annoyed because i have no one to talk to.

2/10/13 - thoughts

I actually stopped driving to type this.

Lately, i feel that everything is different. I feel that im too far away from my so called best friends. I havent had a decent conversation with them lately. They are all busy, they all have a life i know that. But i just cant get myself to accept that the fact i dont get to talk to them. Two of which are really busy in real life and the one i wanna talk the most to, we just dont connect anymore. There is just this lack of communication, each time i try to talk to her. Its like I end up in a dead end. We used to talk all day long, now its like barely nothing. I miss them for sure, but i miss the special one more. I wish we could be what we were before.

Just my thoughts right now @ 9.24am

One self

Did you ever feel so lonely? Even if you have friends. Somedays, thats how i feel. Sometimes, i feel like part of me is missing and therefore i feel lonely. Do i wanna date? Maybe im ready for another run. Is life better alone? Maybe, no responsibilities no engagement. I wouldnt lie if i were to say life is good being single but then sometimes, i just feel lonely, miserable..

Hopefully, ill get over that part of life.

The One and Only

Ive been thinking over and over again... Since my break up.. I haven't dated anyone.. All I did is keep falling for girls, im guessing its something bound to happen... Ive actually fell for like three girls since then... All of them, unavailable, all of them taken and all of them far away... They are all out of my league, but ive kept thinking and there is only one i cant get out of my head... We had our rough time and still, till now, mean the world to me.. I know 'us' is impossible, i know we will never be... Why is it so hard to get over you? Why do i still keep hope knowing that it is impossible... WHY? I still dont know why you mean so much to me. I thought i did move on, but it seems that part of me still likes you. You are still special to me although we arent what we used to be. I still have this butterfly effect in my stomach thinking about you, seeing you. Help me get over you.. Did time help? I wouldnt think so.

I am sorry for everything i did to you.
And i hope one day we'll meet again.